Ed Sheeran 'didn't want to live' after his friends Jamal Edwards and Shane Warne died

Ed Sheeran says helium "didn't privation to unrecorded immoderate more" aft the deaths of his friends SBTV laminitis Jamal Edwards and cricketer Shane Warne successful 2022.

Speaking to Rolling Stone magazine, the prima said helium had dealt with slump "throughout my life" and felt the feelings resurface past year.

"You're nether the waves drowning. You're conscionable benignant of successful this thing. And you can't get retired of it."

He disquieted his thoughts were "selfish", fixed that helium is simply a genitor to 2 girls.

"Especially arsenic a father, I consciousness truly embarrassed astir it," the 32-year-old said.

Sheeran credited his wife, Cherry Seaborn, with encouraging him to question help.

"No 1 truly talks astir their feelings wherever I travel from," helium said. "People deliberation it's weird getting a therapist successful England.… I deliberation it's precise adjuvant to beryllium capable to talk with idiosyncratic and conscionable vent and not consciousness blameworthy astir venting.

"Obviously, like, I've lived a precise privileged life. So my friends would ever look astatine maine like, 'Oh, it's not that bad.'

"The assistance isn't a fastener that is pressed, wherever you're automatically OK," helium continued. "It is thing that volition ever beryllium determination and conscionable has to beryllium managed."

Edwards, who gave Sheeran his archetypal large break, died abruptly from a bosom onslaught successful February 2022 aft taking cocaine and drinking alcohol, a coroner concluded.

Sheeran said the calamity convinced him to footwear a cause wont helium had developed successful his 20s.

"I retrieve conscionable being astatine a festival and being like, 'Well, if each of my friends bash it, it can't beryllium that bad,'" helium said. "And past it conscionable turns into a wont that you bash erstwhile a week and past erstwhile a time and then, like, doubly a time and then, like, without booze. It conscionable became atrocious vibes.

"I would never, ever, ever interaction thing again, due to the fact that that's however Jamal died," helium added. "And that's conscionable disrespectful to his representation to even, like, spell near."

Shortly aft Edwards' death, Sheeran's woman was diagnosed with a tumour which could not beryllium operated connected until aft she had fixed commencement to their 2nd daughter, Jupiter.

"You consciousness truthful powerless," Sheeran recalled. "There's thing you tin bash astir it."

Seaborn yet carried the babe to word and had palmy country successful June 2022, the greeting that Sheeran headlined Wembley Stadium, Rolling Stone said.

The affectional toll of those events tin beryllium seen successful a trailer for Sheeran's forthcoming Disney+ documentary, The Sum Of It All.

In 1 scene, the prima is pictured crying connected stage, arsenic helium grapples with Edwards' decease and Seaborn's wellness condition, portion simultaneously facing a lengthy copyright trial.

"I've ne'er seen him outcry connected stage," Seaborn observes successful the clip. "He hasn't had the clip to process and beryllium astatine bid with his thoughts."

Sheeran has antecedently revealed that his caller album, Subtract, was wholly re-written against the "backdrop of grief and hope" helium experienced past year.

Originally intended to beryllium a postulation of acoustic songs recorded implicit a 10-year period, helium scrapped the task and started again, utilizing songwriting to "make sense" of his feelings.

He made the grounds with The National's Aaron Dessner, who antecedently co-produced Taylor Swift's lockdown albums Folklore and Evermore.

Dessner told Rolling Stone he'd encouraged the prima to amusement "a much vulnerable" and "elemental" broadside to his music.

As helium had done with Swift, the instrumentalist started sending Sheeran instrumental tracks to trade into finished songs.

"I had these instrumentals, and I would constitute to them successful the backs of cars oregon planes oregon whatever," Sheeran said.

"And past it got done. And that was the record. It was each very, very, precise fast."

The prima added that helium recorded a second, wholly separate, medium with Dessner which has nary steadfast merchandise day astatine present.

He besides revealed the beingness of a collaborative medium with reggaeton prima J Balvin, arsenic good arsenic forthcoming euphony with Pharrell, Shakira, David Guetta and Justin Bieber.