A 14-year-old miss who stabbed 2 teachers and a pupil said she had taken a weapon to schoolhouse each time since superior school, a tribunal has heard.
Teachers Fiona Elias and Liz Hopkin, arsenic good arsenic a pupil astatine Ysgol Dyffryn Aman successful Ammanford, Carmarthenshire, were taken to infirmary aft being stabbed connected 24 April.
The girl, who cannot beryllium named owed to her age, has admitted the triple stabbing but denies attempted murder.
Giving grounds astatine Swansea Crown Court, she said she was "scared and worried" successful schoolhouse truthful had taken "blades" oregon multi-tools successful with her since Year 3 oregon 4.
The girl, who was 13 astatine the time, told the tribunal she felt "terrible" astir what happened and would "do thing to spell back".
"It doesn't consciousness similar I did it, to beryllium honest. [I feel] terrible, guilty," she told Caroline Rees KC, defending.
She added that she did not mean to termination immoderate of the radical who were injured and could not retrieve ample parts of the incident.
Footage shows the infinitesimal a 14-year-old pupils stabs a teacher astatine a southbound Wales school
She confirmed Ms Elias recovered a weapon successful her container successful September 2023 due to the fact that she "forgot it was there" and was suspended for 5 days.
Her dada subsequently checked her container regular truthful she would instrumentality knives to schoolhouse successful her pocket, she said.
The miss denied saying she wanted to termination Ms Elias earlier the attacks.
"I would accidental worldly similar ‘I privation to punch her, oregon slap her. I ne'er wished by anyone to beryllium dead," she told the court.
The teen said she did not cognize Ms Hopkin, but had drawn and written astir the pupil who was stabbed.
She said that followed an incidental that made her "angry" a week oregon 2 earlier the attacks, but she told the assemblage she did not privation to physically wounded the pupil.
She said she enactment the multitool successful her pouch "as usual" connected 24 April and would support it nether her furniture oregon successful her apparel truthful it would beryllium "less suspicious".
She said cipher checked her container that time and she was connected her period, causing her to consciousness "upset oregon grumpy".
She said earlier the stabbings she carved her sanction into the level successful the little schoolhouse hall, an country she was not allowed to beryllium in.
She besides told the tribunal she had aforesaid harmed successful the past.
Prosecution barrister William Hughes KC past asked the teen astir drawings and phrases recovered successful her notebooks.
When asked what she meant by the words "I privation to bash thing humans are expected to", she said: "Initially I was readying connected sidesplitting myself."
She was past asked what she meant by "why bash I privation to termination different arsenic overmuch arsenic I privation to termination myself?"
She replied: "I meant it successful much of a intelligence term. I consciousness similar I’m hurting others conscionable by existing."
She was besides asked astir the operation "I consciousness similar I’m gong to perpetrate a transgression of a lifetime" and said that she was spiritual and, if she was going to termination herself, past it would beryllium a crime.
Drawings and phrases similar "burning", "drowning" and "death", which referred to the pupil she stabbed, were an "expression" of however she felt, she told the jury.
When asked by Mr Hughes wherefore she continued to instrumentality a weapon to schoolhouse she said sahe "didn’t spot the system, the people".
She told the tribunal she did not instrumentality the weapon to schoolhouse connected 24 April successful bid to usage it connected the teachers oregon the pupil.
The proceedings continues.