TV cook Si King said the past fewer months person been a "struggle" pursuing the decease of his Hairy Bikers co-star Dave Myers.
Myers, who recovered fame alongside King, his person of 30 years, arsenic portion of the motorcycle-riding cooking duo, died astatine the property of 66 successful February.
In 2022, Myers had revealed his diagnosis with crab and said helium was undergoing chemotherapy.
In a first-person nonfiction for The Sunday Times, King, 57, said portion he's been connected the verge of "jumping connected my motorcycle and heading into the sunset" helium has decided to bash "exactly what Dave would person wanted" and determination forward.
"I'll beryllium honorable with you, the past fewer months person been a struggle," King said.
"More than erstwhile I was connected the verge of jumping connected my motorcycle and heading into the sunset.
"Not archer anyone wherever I was going. Just wide disconnected and ne'er travel back.
"Other times I was raging. Raging astatine that bloody disease, astatine God and thing other I could deliberation of. People were asking what I was going to bash next.
"The reply is I americium going to instrumentality immoderate clip to bespeak connected the beingness I had with my champion mate, and deliberation astir moving forwards.
"Which is precisely what Dave would person wanted. Move forward, don't dwell connected the past."
In June, thousands of motorcyclists travelled from London to Myers' hometown successful Barrow-in-Furness, Cumbria, arsenic portion of the archetypal Dave Day, a memorial motorcycle thrust successful honour of the TV chef.
King has present revealed helium has been putting unneurotic a caller anthology of classical Hairy Bikers recipes and added that "there are a fewer caller projects connected the horizon".
"But adjacent if I extremity up doing thing much than making bacon sarnies and playing a fewer gigs with my band, that's good by me. Happy days," helium said.
King described the past bid the duo filmed unneurotic - which took spot aft Myers' diagnosis - arsenic "by acold the astir hard happening I've ever had to bash successful my life".
He said Myers unwellness was physically evident but arsenic soon arsenic the cameras started rolling "he'd person his dukes up, acceptable for a scrap".
King reflected connected the memories helium shared with Myers, successful peculiar a camping travel successful Namibia successful which they had a "spiritual experience" looking up astatine the African sky, "properly" seeing their postulation for the archetypal time.
He besides recalled however their narration was sealed "over a tandoori chickenhearted masala, 4 poppadoms and 3 pints of lager" aft gathering connected TV play The Gambling Man successful 1992.
"It was motorbikes that archetypal got america chatting, but it soon became evident that Dave was conscionable arsenic nuts astir nutrient arsenic I was," helium said.
The pair's archetypal TV quality unneurotic was The Hairy Bikers' Cookbook successful 2004, which was portion cooking amusement and portion question programme and successful the archetypal occurrence the duo rode the magnitude of Portugal.
King said helium keeps getting asked if the Hairy Bikers person near a legacy.
"Yeah, I'd similar to deliberation we made a small spot of difference, present and there," helium said.
"Just 2 regular blokes, having a spell astatine beef rendang oregon pome pie. Hopefully we caught the attraction of radical who didn't usually ticker swanky cooking programmes connected telly."
King added: "Overweight, scruffy, working-class northerners don't often get presented with an accidental similar the Hairy Bikers.
"It was a beautiful, magical happening and I'll miss it. I'll miss him. But determination is simply a aboriginal for me, and I'm excited for what's coming next."