Jennifer Lopez reflects on Ben Affleck split: 'I honestly felt like I was going to die' - Yahoo Entertainment

Jennifer Lopez said her and Ben Affleck's breakup 20 years agone was truthful "painful" she thought she'd "die." In a caller interview, the vocalist talked astir her latest Affleck-inspired medium and what the actor-director said had to accidental astir immoderate seemingly idiosyncratic lyrics.

Lopez, 53, spoke to Apple Music's Zane Lowe astir her forthcoming medium This Is Me...Now, a follow-up to her deed 2002 task This Is Me...Then.

"Twenty years ago, I fell successful emotion with the emotion of my life," Lopez explained. "Now, the astir amazing, incredible, unbelievable happening has happened... the crushed we're present is due to the fact that I privation to seizure this infinitesimal successful clip due to the fact that it is adjacent amended than the archetypal time."

Affleck and Lopez tied the knot (twice!) implicit the summertime aft rekindling their relationship. The Gigli co-stars initially called disconnected their engagement successful 2004.

"It was truthful achy aft we broke up. Once we called disconnected that wedding 20 years ago, I was — it was the biggest heartbreak of my life. I honestly felt similar I was going to die," Lopez recalled. "It sent maine connected a spiral for the adjacent 18 years wherever I conscionable couldn't get it right. Couldn't get it right. But now, 20 years later, it does person a blessed ending. It has the astir would-never-happen-in-Hollywood ending. 'That would ne'er happen. We're not going to constitute that due to the fact that cipher would judge it' ending."

Lopez said that erstwhile she and Affleck got backmost together, helium called her retired for not performing songs that were astir him connected This Is Me...Then.

"I was like, 'You're right. It was painful.' It was a portion of maine past that I had to enactment distant to determination connected and survive. It was a endurance tactic, for sure," Lopez recalled. (By the way, she said Affleck "knows each of the words" to songs connected that album.)

"This Is Me...Then truly captured a infinitesimal successful clip wherever I fell successful emotion with the emotion of my life. It's each close determination connected the record. I didn't adjacent recognize what was happening and what I was doing," Lopez remembered. "Every azygous opus that we wrote there, maine penning 'Dear Ben,' it was specified a peculiar infinitesimal successful clip to person captured."

Lopez said the media frenzy surrounding their narration "destroyed us" each those years ago.

"That was portion of what destroyed america was the extracurricular vigor that was coming astatine us. And we loved each other, it was hard. It felt, astatine times, unfair, but neither 1 of america is that idiosyncratic to beryllium like, woe is me. So we were like, 'Well, we conscionable got to particulate it disconnected and support it moving.' And I think, successful the weirdest way, that it motivated some of america to past go and bash the things that we coiled up doing, which is benignant of spell into hyper-gear," she said, noting they had "to bash it separately." He went into hyper-gear and I went into hyper-gear. But not together. We had to bash it separately... It fueled america successful a weird mode that we felt we had to beryllium ourselves again."

Lopez hinted that This Is Me...Now volition diagnostic likewise idiosyncratic lyrics arsenic its predecessor.

"We captured maine astatine this infinitesimal successful clip erstwhile I was reunited with the emotion of my beingness and we decided we were going to beryllium unneurotic forever. The full connection of the medium past is this emotion exists. This is simply a existent love. Now I deliberation what the connection of the medium is precise overmuch if you were wondering if you have, similar maine astatine times, mislaid hope, astir fixed up, don't. Because existent emotion does beryllium and immoderate things bash past everlastingly and that's real," the Marry Me star shared.

"I privation to enactment that connection retired into the satellite and that does instrumentality a batch of vulnerability. But I couldn't halt myself and immoderate parts of it scare me. And I deliberation parts of it scare Ben too. He's like, 'Oh, bash you truly privation to accidental each this stuff?' And I'm like, 'I don't cognize however other to bash it, baby,'" Lopez teased.

This Is Me...Now volition beryllium released successful 2023.

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