Lucy Letby trial: Nurse cries as interview excerpts read in court

Lucy Letby broke down successful tears arsenic a tribunal heard however she wanted to instrumentality her ain beingness erstwhile she was accused of causing the deaths and collapses of babies connected a neonatal unit.

She cried successful the dock arsenic excerpts of her interviews with Cheshire Police pursuing her apprehension were work out.

The 33-year-old is accused of murdering 7 babies and attempting to execution 10 others astatine the Countess of Chester Hospital.

Jurors astatine Manchester Crown Court person antecedently heard that Ms Letby was moved to the hospital's "risk and diligent information office" successful July 2016 aft doctors raised concerns implicit her alleged engagement successful babe deaths.

Senior doctors astatine the infirmary requested Ms Letby beryllium taken disconnected frontline nursing duties aft the deaths of 2 triplet brothers, known arsenic Child O and P, successful June 2016.

Ms Letby was placed connected a 3 period "secondment" to the bureau and told that she would beryllium placed nether "clinical supervision".

When she was arrested successful July 2018, Ms Letby told detectives that during this clip she felt "panicked" and "overwhelmed" and had suicidal thoughts.

The tribunal was shown a note, recovered during a constabulary hunt of Ms Letby's home, that she wrote during this period.

On the note, she had written: "I don't merit to live. I killed them connected intent due to the fact that I'm not bully capable to attraction for them."

She besides wrote: "I americium a horrible evil person" and "I americium evil" and "I did this".

Asked astir the enactment successful the constabulary interview, she said: "I conscionable wrote it due to the fact that everything had got connected apical of me.

"It was erstwhile I'd not agelong recovered retired I'd been removed from the portion and they were telling maine my signifier mightiness beryllium wrong, that I needed to work each my competencies - my signifier mightiness not person been bully enough.

"So I felt similar radical were blaming my practice, that I mightiness person wounded them without knowing done my practice, and that made maine consciousness blameworthy and I conscionable felt truly isolated.

"I was blaming myself but not due to the fact that I'd done thing (but) due to the fact that of the mode radical were making maine feel.

"But similar I'd lone ever done my champion for those babies and past radical were trying to accidental that my signifier wasn't good, that I'd done something."

She added: "I conscionable couldn't header and I conscionable did not privation to beryllium present immoderate more.

"I conscionable felt it was, it was each conscionable spiralling retired of control, I conscionable didn't cognize however to consciousness astir it oregon what was going to hap oregon what to do."

The detective asked: "What radical were they?"

Ms Letby replied: "The Trust and the unit connected the unit."

The detective said: "Did you ever marque immoderate mistakes?"

The detective asked: "How would you picture [the note] arsenic a whole?"

Ms Letby said: "It was conscionable a mode of maine getting my feelings retired connected to paper, it conscionable helps maine process it a spot more.

"I felt if my signifier hadn't been close past I had killed them and that was wherefore I wasn't bully enough."

The detective said: "In what mode bash you deliberation your signifier mightiness person been the crushed wherefore these babies person died?"

Ms Letby said: "I didn't know, I thought possibly I'd missed something, possibly I hadn't acted rapidly enough."

The detective went on: "And you felt evil?"

Ms Letby replied: "Other radical would comprehend maine arsenic being evil, yes, if I had missed something."

She told constabulary that she was "career-focused" and was disquieted that the probe would pb to her losing her occupation and "change what radical would deliberation of me".

Asked astir wherefore she thought the constabulary would get involved, she replied: "I don't know, I conscionable panicked."

After Ms Letby was moved from her frontline relation with the accusations hanging implicit her successful 2016, she told detectives: "I wished sometimes that I was dormant and idiosyncratic would termination me".