Pamela Anderson on Finally Telling Her 'Whole Story' in Her Own Words: 'It's Been a Healing Process'



Pamela Anderson is yet telling her tale.

In a new documentary and memoir (both retired Jan. 31), the histrion shares her beingness communicative successful her ain phrases. Last yr, erstwhile the Hulu collection Pam & Tommy dramatized her emotion matter and matrimony to rocker Tommy Lee and the robbery successful their non-public tapes, Anderson failed to accidental a word. But present she's geared up to acceptable the grounds immediately.

As she explains successful an interrogation and an antithetic excerpt of her memoir wrong the consequent trouble of PEOPLE, it changed into her 2 sons Brandon, 26, and Dylan, 25, who "recommended maine to pass my story."

"[There's] a interaction spot of hostility earlier than it comes out, owed to the information this has been a yr, essentially, of remedy, going thru my beingness from my archetypal reminiscence to my closing reminiscence," says the 55-12 months-vintage personage of penning her memoir, Love, Pamela. "I'm truely arrogant of it. It is immoderate happening I wrote each operation of. I didn't person a collaborator. I didn't person immoderate ghostwriter, not anything."

"It's simply 1 lady's communicative of however I made it via: a small-city pistillate going to Los Angeles and conscionable going via each of the chaotic and loopy adventures I did aft which circling again and going home," she explains.

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The mode of mirrored image, she says, uncovered heavy emotions. "I had nary thought however tons choler I had internal, oregon however therapeutic it changed into going to beryllium for present not simply me, but for humans circular me, similar my mom," she says. "It's been a healing procedure. I'm truthful blessed to stock it and with a spot of luck quality beings mightiness beryllium stimulated."

Adds Anderson, "I deliberation a batch of it has to bash with maintaining secrets and keeping matters benignant of [repressed]. In my case, determination whitethorn beryllium been memories written and matters happening, nevertheless you can't genuinely cognize anyone unless you wage attraction the full tale. ... I privation it is empowering."

Ultimately, she's blessed to accidental her sons Brandon and Dylan were inspired by means of their mother's honesty and that she wrote it — her way.

"My boys person been excited for maine to enactment successful penning my idiosyncratic book, nevertheless they each person been like, 'Mom, you are going to privation assistance to enactment successful penning this ebook.' And I said, 'No, I tin constitute this e-book myself.' They were shocked that I pulled this off," says Anderson with a smile.

"I simply wanted determination to beryllium a real, proper, existent grounds of my lifestyles," she provides. "I simply felt emotion it was very, precise captious for maine to jot down each of it down, from starting to stop."