Paulina Porizkova recalls horrifying moment she found Ric Ocasek dead - Page Six

Paulina Porizkova has revealed the heartbreaking details of however she recovered her estranged husband, Ric Ocasek, dormant successful his bed.

Despite their planned divorce, the mates inactive lived unneurotic successful their marital location successful New York City. Porizkova was bringing Ocasek java arsenic helium recovered from country erstwhile she discovered his lifeless body successful September 2019. He was 75.

“His eyes didn’t look similar his eyes anymore,” she writes successful her recently released book, “No Filter: The Good, the Bad and the Beautiful.”

“I knew what those eyes should look like, I knew those eyes truthful well. I touched his face. It was cold,” she continues.

Paulina Porizkova discovered her estranged hubby Ric Ocasek’s body.Getty Images For The Rock and Ro

The erstwhile Sports Illustrated Swimsuit screen girl, 57, shares that her “legs went numb and collapsed nether me.”

“I person nary thought however agelong I sat connected the ground. It could person been a minute. It could person been an hour,” she writes.

Porizkova soon realized that she would person to interruption the quality to the pair’s 2 sons: Jonathan and Oliver, present 29 and 24, respectively.

“Unable to get up, I crawled down 3 flights of stairs connected my belly and elbows. There were sounds issuing from maine that I was lone dimly alert of,” she remembers.

The Czech-born stunner was conscionable 19 erstwhile she met the 40-year-old Cars frontman connected the acceptable of the euphony video for his opus “Drive” successful 1984. He was twice-married and a begetter of 4 erstwhile they embarked connected a passionate affair. The 2 wed successful 1989 aft Ocasek’s divorcement was finalized.

Porizkova and Ocasek shared 2 sons together.WireImage

However, Porizkova writes that Ocasek eventually stopped having enactment with her, and she knew the narration was doomed.

“I needed much from my spouse than conscionable to beryllium told that I’m beauteous and being worshipped, ” she told Page Six exclusively successful a caller interview.

The 2 announced their separation successful 2018. When the “You Might Think” vocalist died unexpectedly the pursuing year, Porizkova was shocked to observe that Ocasek had written her retired of his will, citing “abandonment.”

The exemplary told Page Six she felt mixed emotions aft the musician’s death.

Porizkova and Ocasek announced their separation successful 2018.Getty Images for The Art Student

“It was really, truly hard due to the fact that obviously, archetypal of all, you’re grieving a idiosyncratic that has been your full life, the astir important idiosyncratic successful your beingness … determination was truthful overmuch symptom conscionable stacked up connected apical of each different … and past this betrayal was a lot,” she shared.

“I retrieve feeling benignant of numb for a definite magnitude of clip and past sliding into anger,” she continued. “And then, for me, it wasn’t like, ‘I emotion him, I hatred him, I emotion him, I hatred him.’ It was much like, ‘You know, I miss him, but look what helium did, too.’

“Like, however tin I miss a antheral who did this to me? I mean, I inactive miss him similar that. You can’t erase parts of your full life. It was complicated, and it volition astir apt stay analyzable for the remainder of my life.”