Former England and Leicester hooker Tom Youngs has spoken astir his feelings of "loneliness" aft the decease of his woman Tiffany.
"I've had days wherever I've thought however americium I going to get done the time and I did," helium told BBC Breakfast.
"Never suffer hope, the days get easier, beingness moves guardant and you tin bask life."
Tiffany was archetypal diagnosed with a lymphatic crab successful 2014 and Youngs pulled retired of England's circuit of New Zealand that summertime to attraction for her.
She was told successful 2018 that she was successful remission, but the crab aboriginal returned, with erstwhile Leicester skipper Youngs taking indefinite leave to attraction for her again successful October 2021.
Following status and Tiffany's death, Tom is backmost moving connected the household farm, which helium says has helped to combat his feeling of "loneliness".
He said: "I deliberation the loneliness truly hits you. But I person learned, I person gone done that and I americium amended for that acquisition due to the fact that my reflection connected beingness is better.
"I'm precise fortunate to person the farm. I privation to work, I privation to bash that. Going done thing that I person gone through, if you beryllium astir and deliberation excessively much, you thrust yourself crazy."
Youngs besides says his nine-year-old girl Maisie gives him intent and the "responsibility to marque definite she enjoys beingness arsenic well".
He added: "If you get that right, you tin person 1 precise resilient small miss who understands beingness acold earlier than she should person done. You marque her idiosyncratic who tin spell and execute a batch retired of life.
"You can't support getting aggravated astir something. I don't spot the advantages of surviving beingness similar that.
"Never suffer hope, the days get easier, beingness moves guardant and you tin bask beingness and not consciousness blameworthy astir it. That's each portion of the grieving stages and getting done it."
Youngs played 215 games for Leicester - the bulk of his career, alongside member Ben - and won 28 England caps arsenic good arsenic playing successful 3 British and Irish Lions Tests successful 2013.