by Karla Kane / Palo Alto Weekly
Uploaded: Sun, Jan 15, 2023, 2:08 pm
Life is afloat of choices, large and small, but determination is besides overmuch that's retired of our control.
In her caller memoir, "Boundless: An Abortion Doctor Becomes a Mother," writer Christine Henneberg ponders the conception of prime — from her ain vocation decisions and travel toward motherhood to the value of trusting the choices of her patients — and however to reconcile a request for boundaries with the boundless emotion and dedication of parenthood. Though it's a profoundly idiosyncratic book, Henneberg besides beautifully recounts galore stories of patients, household members, friends and colleagues that person stuck with her implicit the years, from harrowing to heartwarming (and sometimes some astatine once).
Her publication came unneurotic a fewer years ago, successful the aboriginal months of her newborn daughter's life, arsenic Henneberg reflected implicit galore of the experiences and feelings she'd written astir successful her diary during her aesculapian residency and beyond. She began recognizing communal themes, "all astir mothers, each astir this aforesaid ambivalence I had during my grooming — not conscionable whether to support going but whether I could beryllium a mom, whether I wanted to beryllium a ma — the stories, they each already existed successful my notebook," she said.
In "Boundless," she discusses her struggles during the grueling play of aesculapian schoolhouse and residency; her doubts astir her prime of career; and yet uncovering fulfillment arsenic an termination doctor.
"I deliberation successful wide radical person this misconception that women going successful to an termination session are benignant of careless, oregon clueless, oregon naive ... and that the session is afloat of radical who are dejected and ashamed. It could not beryllium farther from the truth," she said. Yes, determination are plentifulness of moments of pain, sadness, and difficulty, but determination is besides empowerment.
"We're truthful arrogant to beryllium determination helping women done these hard decisions," she said. "It's precise rewarding enactment that we instrumentality a batch of pridefulness in. Women permission the session carried to immoderate grade connected that pridefulness they consciousness from the bully attraction they've received there."
One of the reasons Henneberg said she loves her enactment arsenic an termination supplier is the accidental to afloat enactment women successful their choices.
"I truly emotion gathering a pistillate successful a spot and a clip successful her beingness erstwhile she has each crushed to consciousness anxious, acrophobic oregon definite that she's going to beryllium treated poorly. To conscionable her and say, 'I wholly spot you. I'm going to dainty you with each the dignity and respect you merit and support you safe,'" she said. "Really trusting her with her beingness and her body, I deliberation that is not thing that women get — particularly large women — precise often."
As a California-based doctor, Henneberg has not seen overmuch alteration to her day-to-day objective enactment since the U.S. Supreme Court ruling successful June 2022 that overturned the 1973 Roe v. Wade determination and denied the law close to abortion, though she said she does present spot much patients from retired of state.
"I surely person beardown feelings astir the women who are stuck successful different states who we volition ne'er see, who are truthful stuck they can't truly entree immoderate solution. For truthful galore women it was truthful hard for them to get an termination already," she said. "And I deliberation astir my colleagues successful different states who trained to bash the enactment that I do, who can't bash it immoderate more."
When her 2 children are older, she hopes to question to assistance supply attraction successful states similar Kansas, wherever termination clinics are facing an influx of patients from neighboring states, and prosecute successful much activistic work. "I deliberation astir what's happening successful the remainder of the state a lot," she said.
While becoming a parent has not changed Henneberg's committedness to termination work, it has had an interaction connected however she relates to the women successful her care, particularly to the galore who already person children and are making a determination connected ending a consequent pregnancy.
"I truly place much with my patients. I empathize with them," she said. "They marque decisions for what's champion for their families. I recognize the complexity of that choice, of that decision, overmuch amended than before."
The operation of "Boundless" follows Henneberg's gestation starring up to the commencement of her archetypal child, interspersed with memories from her puerility and idiosyncratic beingness arsenic good arsenic her aesculapian work. In summation to her evolving thoughts astir motherhood, she reflects connected her narration with her husband, his close-knit family, and her ain parents, including the sometimes fraught transportation with her father, who died astir 3 years ago.
"He knew precise overmuch the complexities of his and my narration and however we loved each different and pushed each different precise hard," Henneberg said. "I don't deliberation there's thing successful the publication that would person amazed him."
From a young age, Henneberg ever dreamed of being a writer. She was raised successful Palo Alto and fondly recalls galore blessed days spent visiting the erstwhile downtown bookshop, If Wishes Were Horses, and the Palo Alto Children's Library, wherever she spending hours speechmaking successful its Secret Garden.
"For idiosyncratic who liked to read, Palo Alto was the cleanable spot to turn up," she said. Her emotion of penning soon followed her emotion of reading. At property 14, successful fact, she won the Palo Alto Weekly's yearly Short Story Contest ("She writes compulsively," her parent told this quality enactment astatine the time).
While penning remains possibly her truest calling, she became funny successful medicine aft volunteering arsenic an English teacher successful agrarian India during a semester disconnected from college.
The acquisition "really opened my eyes to nationalist wellness and poverty," she said, peculiarly successful regards to women's health, and she was inspired by the enactment of Paul Farmer, the precocious doc and co-founder of the nonprofit Partners successful Health, arsenic good different writer-doctors. "I knew it was possible," she said of combining medicine and writing. She earned a bachelor's grade successful English and originative penning from Pomona College, past completed the UC Berkeley-UCSF Joint Medical Program.
In caller years, she's published essays successful the New York Times, the San Francisco Chronicle, Boston Review, HuffPost, Slate, the Los Angeles Times and others, and plans to instrumentality to fabrication penning arsenic well.
"I'm ever penning astir termination stories due to the fact that determination are truthful galore of them," she said. "I anticipation to assistance radical recognize what's astatine involvement and however analyzable it tin be."
More accusation is disposable astatine christinehenneberg.com.
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